You know something crazy, This march marks my exact 2 years being in this industry. It’s honestly crazy how quick 2 years of my life blinked before my eyes. I have seen many things, been many places, and met many people that I’ll surely never forget.
I’ve recently attended an industry based event in Las Vegas called Hustlaball. I had an overall great night just hanging out and supporting my boys Ricky and Levi while they danced part of the event.
It was an overall amazing night with all my CB family, but I witnessed something that night that absolutely was not okay and to be honest was down right fucking mortifying. I haven’t took the time in a while to express some of the things that have been on my mind, but I feel that I need to talk about this and see if I’m the only one that feels this way.
I respect a lot of people in this industry and most of the time try to keep my share of opinions to myself. But when things occur at an event in which is representing a part of a industry’s image that I am a part of, I feel it have every right to express how I feel about them.
I respect Mr. Pam she’s such great energy, but after seeing what I saw that night it’s sad to say this, but I’m not sure her and I’s conflicting views on things could ever allow us to be friends, or even in the same room anymore. I’ve come to learn 2 things in this industry and that’s 1. Not everyone is going to like you, and 2. You’re not going to like everyone. Pretty simple. & I think I’ve managed a good 2 years keeping a pretty stable line of professionalism when it comes to my personal opinions as well as religious views.
But, where I am at now, is I don’t give fuck. When Mr. Pam cheerfully tied up JD Phoenix up on stage as if that kid was Jesus on the cross, an the fact that he was so willing for what was about to happen next, is just sick. I honestly just don’t see the relevance of being tied up in front of a white sheet, and whipped on your bare back until blood is literally squirting and spraying all over the place. This is not the industry I signed up or not want to associate myself with. I’m ashamed and disgusted to be seen at the same event this went on. Who thought this was a good idea? Honestly, human torture in no way is a form of self expression or sexual desires. ESPECIALLY at a place in which was not S&M based, but instead an award show. There should have been some kind of warning and/or announcement to alert those that would rather not participate in such an act. But, there was not. I saw people literally running to the bathroom to throw up, it was that bad.
If I’m wrong I am so open to hearing your explanations on why you think this IS okay, but below are some graphic images and you can be the judge.
You know I guess it’s just sad, and I’m extremely extremely confused that a person can be so cheerful and happy and laugh as such a inhumane act is going on feet away from them. Isn’t it in our human nature that when we see a person in pain or inflicting self harm, our instinct is to help them? I know no matter what if I agreed to that that I would hope someone would be there to tell this is not a good idea. You know, I guess that’s why we are just a little different at CB, because our best interest is always most important for OUR boss, and never would we be put in a situation that could hurt us both physically and or mentally. Were taught to love ourselves, over all and throughout that process we learn the feeling of self worth. At least I have anyways. I guess that is why allowing such a vulgar and in humane act to be put upon a person, right I front of me, and for people I once respected to sit there and think it’s okay, just really makes me question a lot. I really wish I knew about this before it happened, JD and I don’t really get a long yet I still would have done everything I could have to talk him out of it.
It’s really just sad to be honest. I’m disgusted, confused and overall just questioning If these events are worth it anymore. Not just for my image, but also for the best interest of our company. We worked damn hard for the image we have and personally I just think that it needs to be clarified that on behalf of all of us that we did not nor do not, will ever support the in humane act that occurred on stage that night.
Really would love to hear your opinions on this.
Actually I’d rather not post the photos here on my blog feel free to check them out online.